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gas smells.

ammonia gas made me dumb. it shot into my nostrils, down my throat and made me CRY! haha. no la. i didnt cry. but when it went down my thoroat, goodness, it was painful.

oh well. sometimes i wonder, why put in so much hardwork when your payback is the same, or perhaps, even less. i studied hard, worked hard, but my results are not up to my expectation. sigh. maybe my expectations are too high. oh well.

studying tonight. yes. got differentiation quiz tomorrow. thank goodness mr ang is only testing the foundations.

oh well. cheers sheryl. (: at least u had fun in class.

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caught by the soul.

today. i realized somethings about the guys in my class.

nic choo has got eyes that catches the truth.

soonkiang has got eyes with depth.

kheeern has got a brain that works well with logic.

andrew has got a mouth of laughter.

yiyong has got a deep mind.

oh well. i have my big big class problem. i shall solve it. yes sheryl, GO GO GO!

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what am i doing in this class?

i'm troubled. can somebody tell me, why is that some people can score near full marks and hate themselves for it? for scoring one or two marks less than full. then me, who is scoring like 25% less than full marks, am i supposed to be upset or happy? upset that i could not score full marks or happy that i'm doing 25% better than my usual?

its just puzzling. i was okay with my results at 1st. but as time progresses, i hear people scoring better than me frustrated about losing that one or two marks, it makes me wonder, what the hell am i doing in this class? are my aims too low? or am i supposed to feel like them, unhappy with all their results.

but then again, i'm in this competitive class. the fittest survives. maybe i'm just not fit enough. or maybe, i just dont want results as badly as them. it makes me wonder again, what am i doing in this class?

its not that i dont like 402. i love 402 from the bottom of my heart. i guess, maybe i just cannot survive in such a competitive environment. or maybe, my expectations for myself have risen, like in sec 1. i dont know.

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dear sheryl:
please remember to tell yourself to smile all day tomorrow.
love,sheryl

today is an emo day. bad bad bad. unlike my friend, i cant use period as an excuse. oh well. tomorrow shall be lived happily. haha. shld be able to with those monkeys behind me ((:

i have my CFD (cumulative frequency distribution) test tomorrow. and i forgot to bring back my emath textbook!! oh well. what am i supposed to do? lets just pray for the best. at least i listened in class. (: haha. i'm so good.

i guess i'm thinking too much. but oh well. dont think sheryl dont think. i have too many stuff to do to think abt such stuff. yes. okay good girl. haha. i think i'm mad now. talking to myself. BLEAHS!

dear sheryl:
you know that you can do it. u are a strong girl.
love,sheryl.

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i think i'm a "touch" person. i LOVE big hugs. if u hug me when i'm upset, i'll cry and feel released from my misery. if u grip my hand tightly when i'm nervous, i'll feel a strengh running through my soul. if u stare into my soul when i'm on the verge of desperatism, my soul wouldnt feel so desperate anymore. if you hold me tight when i cry, i'll stop crying for i find the reason to move on. i'm a touch person. i'll always be.

the wedding yesterday was SWEET! oh man. makes me want to get married. but now, whenever i think of marriage, i'll think of divorce. sigh. that's bad right? oh well. this time will pass. i hope my father's god-brother's brother will live happily ever after. yes.

oh well. now, i have the love of my family and the people around me. that's more than enough to sustain me. i love all of you.

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i have to attend a wedding later. i want to wear a DRESSY DRESS! but mum says it too formal for me ): oh well.

i remeber when i was little, i used to love wearing dresses A LOT! but oh well. i feel like wearing them again. will it look weird on me? hmms.

i read a friend's blog. yes, hello my friend! thought that she was the exact replica of who i once was. the person i hated myself to be. desperate, upset, dependent, and worst of all, i LOST myself.

so to my friend, i really want to tell you this.
there are things not worth holding onto. there are things you HAVE TO hold onto. god gives you what you need, not what you want. if there's no need to hold onto him, just let it pass. you only have a pair of hands. with one, you'd have to hold your school work. and with the other empty one, its up to you whose hands you want to hold onto. YOURS or HIS. should you think of life 20years down the road, will he still be there for u? will you still be there for urself? who do u want to be there for you? u choose.

life isn't fair i know. so live it to its fullest. because, you only have one life to live.i think you should let it go.

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i see your true colours~

let us put our hands together to applaud DOVE for the self-confidence fund.

because every girl deserves to feel beautiful.

you are beautiful not because u look beautiful, but because u feel beautiful. yes.

to all those w low self-esteem: feel beautiful because you are. (:

i dare say, i feel beautiful (X. HAHA! love yourself people.

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no longer living the life i used to.

i guess. the chapter ends here. our paths have crossed. goodbye. and thank you for this clean break.

cant deny i'm upset. but its over. yup. it was long over. look forward to the future. yes girl, you can do that. look forward to the future.

oh well. FREEDOM IS RINGING! (:

sheryl, you go girl!

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FAT FAT!

i'm so proud of myself today! i didnt freak over minor stuff!!! oh well. maybe i did. over FAT. people, say hello to FAT. FAT is FAT. which is why FAT is called FAT.

FAT!

haha. oh well. the pic is blur cux its taken w my phone. camera without focus. sad story but oh well. i think i'm going gaga over fat FAT. haha.

oh yes. THANKS FOR THE DINO! haha.

oh well. tomorrow i have... SS TEST! yes.

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tomorrow is GEOG test for coast.

tomorrow need to discuss the BARACUDA board design.

tomorrow need to hand in AMATH homework.

tomorrow need to collect SCHOLARS' INJECTION FORM.

tomorrow need to do.. AHHH! SO MANY THINGS.

tomorrow i shall NOT stress out over minor stuff.

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if you live everyday as if it was yesterday, you'll live a damned life.

oh it was sad~. a number of my good friends are down this week. so to all of them: CHEER UP PEOPLE! (:

so i see. when i went back to school today, i realized that many share my sentiments about the white shoes. oh well. what can i say? call me goody two shoes, but i seriously think that our school shoes fit the uniform so much better, those it is not as comfy as those white shoes.

oh well. people have their own freedom right? no point comdeming them because they have their preference. so yes. let them be then.

a lame joke mr rodrigues crapped during bio class. fungi (fun guy) vs fungal (fun gal). at least he crapped it before he plunged into his moody moody mood swings again. CHEER UP MR. ROD! haha X:

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the magic word: PLEASE

went for the scholar's treasure hunt today. (: it was so fun. FORNAX rocks!!! yay yay yay. haha. the girls are so hiong but oh well. ENTHU! love you people. and thank you all for the fun times we had together. oh yes. thanks kat for inviting me to help facilitate this treasure hunt. I LOVE YOU KAT!

was there with vidya, kat and keang. apparently i was the only local there but its okay. still had fun. realized one misconception ppl have abt scholars: they are nerdy. cux they are NOT. they are but a bunch of people who knows how to separate studies w games. when they play, they play hard. when they study, they study hard. that's the spirit people (:

oh ya. thanks to vidya who taught me an important lesson. its to say PLEASE and smile. though it was quite a crappy way of learning how to say please, it still works. throughout today,whenever we said please, things went our way.and when we didnt, things didnt go our way AT ALL! so thanks vidya. people, please SMILE and say PLEASE when you want something to go your way. (:

KAT and ME!

(top to bottom) vidya, songkeang, me, kat

FORNAX!

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today. me and yun were going up the stairs when we started counting the number of pairs of white shoes (only of a specific model, mind you) people were wearing. so we went. one, two, three, four... PLENTY! oh gosh. what happened to PERSONALITY in fashion sense? you mean people nowadays just wana be a duplicate of one another. but then again, yes. just look at the cosmetic surgeory industry. everyone wants to get a sharp nose, big eyes (for them to become big-eyed-freaks), tight skin, less fats BLA BLA BLA...

goodness. everyone just lost their personalities trying to be a someone they are not. aw, this is sad. guys wearing clothing of the same style: BAGGY shirts, BAGGY jeans, CHAINED belt,SNEAKERS, bla bla bla. even copying each other's hairstyles. BLEAHS. what happened to all the manly-men in the world? here's the answer: EXTINCT! which means, sheryl, you are going to be a nun.

oh this is sad. little people stay true to themselves nowadays. those goody-goody tries to be naughty-naughty to FIT IN. oh well. i know everyone wants to fit in. but, surely there's a limit to it isnt it? what's the point of fitting in but ur clique dont know u for who u truly are?

surely the world isn't so fake, is it? but then again, it may be. oh well. it is.

this is a fake world we're living in.

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CANDY SWEET.

went for facial today (: haha. it was so comfortable, i fell asleep. X: haha.

dont really know what to say now. all i know is that recently i'm a little emotionally unstable. as in, get HIGH too often. haha. esp during recess.

to de (who'll never get to see this): REMEMBER TO WAKE ME UP AT 9:30AM AFTER I WAKE U UP AT 9AM!! (: haha.

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say NO to child prostitution.

sighed. just realized how lucky i am. at least my parents didnt sell me into prostitution for A DOLLAR! can u believe that. there are people in the world who sells their child for a dollar!!! oh man. that is so sad.i'm really really fortunate. go watch the videos in the websites. it makes you feel super sad. imagine eight year old smiling like their parents are going to bring them to disneyland when people ask them for oral sex. sighed.
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/4038249 life is fragile.

OH MAN! why am i so depressed now? i was laughing like mad in class until my cheekbone muscles got cramp! haha.

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binomial theorem. BLEAHS.

stupid amath test tml. oh sad. shall jiayou. even though i dotn really understand. ahh.

baked some new year cookies today. shall bring it to school some other day. maybe tml. i dont know.

YAWN YAWN YAWN! i'm so tired. i still have 1 binomial question do figure out. oh bother.

i shall just allow myself into sleepy land. YAWN.

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the day...

PHYSICS TEST! did alot of the impact book only to realize that all of the questions come from the TYS!!! wasted my time. but oh well. learnt a lot. should help my Os indirectly.

thanks to a number of people who helped me w my phyics. sook and dan. THANKS A LOT! for the time devoted to teaching me. and of course cc for lending me ur st nics notes which really helped me understand a number of physics concepts. THANKS CC DARLING! (: i'm so touched. haha.

hope i dont fail this time round and manage to continue with my pure physics. or i'll feel as if i let ppl down.

was shopping at VIVO and my heart melted. too many pretty pretty things. but NO money ): oh well. CHI NEW YEAR IN A MONTH PLUS! sth to look forward to (:

and girl, dont think anymore. its the past. yup. YOU CAN DO IT!

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laughing fit!

oh no. i was suffering from heavy laughing fit just now. haha. oh well. think danny was right. those people are but a bunch of wana-bes. oh disgusting. BLEAH.

its raining heavily but my spirit is still up. think i'm laughing a little too much nowadays. what a way to destress!

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women's intuition.

i guess i've been having loads of fun since school reopened. oh man, so in love with the comfy sofa. haha. nth much to say actually. just that as much as i'm having loads of fun, i'm tired, as in feel like sleeping.

hmms. okay. i need to study soon. so ya.

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NING NING tagged me. so ya.

okay, well, read on: you make a list of 5 things not many people know about you. Then you tag 5 other people to do the same! Yada yada yada...

1. i think a lot. sometimes too much. when i stone, or have nth to do, i'd keep thinking of stuff which probably would never have happened. like erms, some funny family drama stuff or sth. oh well. tts me. its fun to picture life the way you want it to be, especially if you are BORED!

2. i used to think that i'd be able to send stuff across the telephone to the person on the other end. when i was like primary 2, i used to put pencil leads into the mic of the telephone at the same time as my other friend, thinking that we would be able to receive each other's leads. end up, when we shake the phone, we can hear sounds, like sth is trapped inside the phone. and we stupidly thought that THE LEAD WAS SENT OVER! haha. so dumb right. i was naiive, cant blame me. (:

3.i wear contact lenses. weird right. i was surprised to find out that less than 10 ppl in 3l0odyhel2 knows tt i wear contact lenses! OMG! okay. so here goes, i wear contact lenses.

4. there's a really FEMALE side of me. i dont really show it, but i can be the extremes of a woman. i feel it but i dont show it. for example: if i totally dont like someone, i can act like a AHEMS to her. yup. i CAN but i choose not to, most of the time. erms ya.

5.i'm quite a people pleaser. i dont know why. perhaps also cux i'm a perfectionist, i want to keep good relationships with everyone around me. haha. i like it when people are happy, it makes me feel happy too. which is also why i talk alot, cux when ppl talk, it pleases me, i think it works well the other way too. oh well. but i bet some ppl are sick and tired of my talking. hahaha. TOO BAD then (:

THE END.

5 people to tag.
1. PHOEBE (force her to make a blog)
2. TERESA (if she ever sees this)
3. GEE (paisei tagged u again.)
4. SHAN
5. YAP! (haha joking. wont make you redo. (: )

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for a moment, i thought it broke.

to my darling pho and yap: DONT DROP! we are always here supporting you. open yourself to more choices for a better tomorrow. we can MUG with you! (: oh, us MUGGERS!

oh well. people around me depressed over whether to drop to combined. i'm depressed over all these upcoming test and some other matters tt i shant think about. oh well.

JIAYOU SHERYL!

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itchy scratchy legs.

mummy knows me best! haha.have i told you i loved you enough? I LOVE YOU MUMMY!

okay. ytd at hs's party kept laughing at sok. AS GONG AS EVER! haha. (: still, she's cute!

okay. back to PHYSICS!

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nothing lasts forever.

i'm so sad! i lost one of my favourite earrings! crap. now i needa get new ones. really liked that one. oh well.

bought another pair of pumps/ballet flats (whichever you call it) today. this time got it for a very low price (: so ya.

have SHAN'S PARTY later!

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no time for emotions.

amath was so fun today. haha. we kept bullying mr ang. HAHAHA! (: until he was so qigek and needed 3mins for himself. but we argued for 5mins of rest. haha.

had so much fun in class, especially where i'm siting now,which isnt really diff from last year. so much jokes in a day. some lessons are getting pretty boring. but thank god to the people seating beside me,i'm still having loads of fun.

oh yes. darling shan, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

and THANK YOU! for helping me with my heat capacity today (:

okay sheryl. time for some mindmaping!

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TUMMY UPSET! come on, cheer up tummy! haha. (:

402 is like warmed up already. so fun! especially sitting at the back. haha. had LOADS AND LOADS OF FUN! haha.

i finished studying 2 chaps of physics today! YAY!

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a few things to rejoice about today..

1.ROD IS OUR FORM!
2. MR WONG IS OUR GEOG TEACHER!
3. MR LIM IS OUR CHEM TEACHER!
4. WE GOT AIR CON ROOM!

yay! we got who we wanted. that's nice. not sure if mr. chan is still our physics teacher. hope so.

of course there were things to boo about today. but lets not disclose it online. so yes. 1st day of school isn't that bad. oh well. tomorrow will be a different story. SEC 4!

I MUST DO MY PHYSICS FROM TOMORROW ONWARDS!

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TML IS SCHOOL DAY!

and the timetable isnt out yet. HAHA!i'm so not gona bring my books tml. (:

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HAPPY NEW YEAR!

spent the last moments of 2006 and first moments of 2007 with some ppl from my class. here's what we did yesterday and today.

2006. last moments.

guess who turned up?

from left: shiling. me. sousata. soonkiang. mason. huishan. the number is pathetic i know. but oh well (:

STEAMBOATING!

our first attempt.

CHICKEN COOKING!

shan cooked too much chicken. poor us had to finish it all. cux we needa pay a surcharge of $5/100g for left over food. haha.

afterwards we went to watch the Night At The Museum. all of us separated cux there was only individual seating left. so we just took those seats and watch the show. it was so nice! haha.

2007. first moments.

BEAUTIFUL FIREWORKS

went down to esplanade for countdown. but THERE WAS NO COUNTDOWN, only fireworks. oh yes. by now, me and shiling lost the guys. and the network was jammed. so we were lost sheeps for like 1/2 hr.

cant upload anymore pics. computer experiencing some network problem. but i had a great time! (: