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i'm really tired. sometimes, i really wonder if this load of my shoulder is ever going to lighten. i'm falling asleep more and more often. i'm really sleepy. really tired. so much so, i think i want to give up. but i wont. because i know i'm capable of more than just these, am i right sheryl?

i think i'm going to be the panda of the class tomorrow. YAY! i'm helping to save pandas from extinction! there'll be 1 more panda in the world! whatever -.-

oh well. YAWN!

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i lost it today. i'm sorry.

thanks to those who were there with me all the way.
regina- for comforting me outside.
mydung- for being the 1st one to hug me and comfort me.
huishan and yilu- for helping me clear the shit i left.
soonkiang- for all the silent support u've given me.
yiyong- for enlightening me.
aurelia- for being concern.
chan- for trying damn hard to make me laugh.
kenlo- for rooting behind me.

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if the emperor loses his trust-worthy aides, what will be emperor be? nothing.

is it because the emperor is pure useless? is it because the emperor is too dependent on his aides? or is it because his aides poisoned his mind and made him dependent on them?

none of the above.

interpersonal human relationships are like a web. every single person are linked to each other, the relationship between each an every of us would determine how our lives move on. no one stands alone. because, we are all one body. one mind. one heart. one spirit. one soul.


this was what i learnt today. everyone is interdependent.

how true.

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just let me be bimbotic for today.

i have every reason to believe that i've been targeted by The Sleep Monster.

for everyday of the week, i've been engulfed by Sleep, the very poison of The Sleep Monster. whether is it late into the night or simply just after my daily dose of coffee, i'd feel like sleeping. to think coffee was my defence against The Sleep Monster. guess it had turn the tables around, using my defence towards its advantage. even after my sleep, i'm still sleepy. to hell with The Sleep Monster.

take today for example. i woke up, all energetic and ready for the PTM. yet, from the very moment i sipped my daily dose of coffee, i started yawning and wanting to fall asleep. even when i was shopping at vivocity today, nothing seem to interest me because, i'm YAWN. tired. have no idea why this is happening. and now, after an evening nap for 2 hours, i want to return to my lala-land, bury myself in the comforts of my bed and start to disconnect myself from the world.

i think it ate my brains today too. my brains feel useless recently. so much so, i dont even know if its there anymore.

all the stupid doings of The Sleep Monster.

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突然觉得，我的负担好重好重。

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可能，我真的达不到你们对我的期望。

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"all i remembered was snow"

i dont know why. when i heard that from someone, it just hit me. not the content, its a really simple sentence. not the snow, i've seen snow before. i think it was more of the feelings behind the sentence. when he said it, i dont know. the feelings seem pure. at least tt was what i felt. couldnt help but stopped whatever i was doing for a moment.

its been a long time since i felt a feeling so pure.

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AHH! i'm damn mood swingy today. cant stand it. must be.. OH WELL.

loads to do today. JIAYOU GIRL!

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不知为什么，今天感觉好像是残废了。虽然，想说很多，但无法以汉语来表达自己心目中真正像说的一切，有如哑巴似的，好辛苦，心里有一股非常难受的感觉。

我，好残废。

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是你，给了我一份感动。谢谢你。

i feel like i've been bathing in sweat. I CANT STOP SWEATING AND ITS NOT HOT TODAY! wth. makes me want to bath again. okay, maybe i will.

=

i think my sense just came back.

SAY HI TO MY SENSE!!!

okay. maybe not. sorry. i'm still kinda brainless. when it really comes back i shall tell you okay?

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oh well. i feel brainless today. yups. BRAINLESS DAY!

mum was looking through my class photos. haha. somehow, i felt damn stripped. X: weird description right. but.. OH WELL. i felt exposed.

BOOOOO! no ice cream and cold food for a week. ):

oh well. AHHHH (: AHHHHH ): AHHHHH(:

told you i'm brainless today. BLEAHS. shall talk some sense when it comes back.

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i'm going LUNCH w MY CECILIA today!!!! (:

okok. loads of holiday stuff to complete. i have like 2 math papers, 1/2 math worksheet, 1 ss paper and 1/2 a compo to go. JIAYOU SHERYL! haha


i'm mad.

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100TH POST~

happy 100th post choya-ed. (:

had learning journey today. DAMN FUN! haha. our group came in second cux we were late by 2 mins. but its okay. we still had loads of fun!! PICTURES!!

CLASS PHOTO!

GROUP PHOTO! (:

lisa in sari!

KHEE w porti (:

me(in sari).huishan

luong. mydung.

sleeping man. (:

regina.luong. kat (with jelabi)

huishan

parrot astrologer!

cute sousata eating

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dear sheryl,
its your duty now.
love sheryl.

dear sheryl,
you know its late but its okay. just manage the best you can.
love sheryl.

dear sheryl,
u know that there are others around who will help you. so you must not give up.
love sheryl.

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老天不作美。

i cant go jogging again cux its gona rain. WTH.

oh well. sheryl sheryl start doing ur work!!

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今天，太为难你了。早就应该知道每个人的能力有限，但我偏偏逼你超越自己的限制。

对不起。

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OMG! I'M SO HAPPY! MY IPOD NANO IS WORKING! i thought it died on me or sth. YAY YAY!

okay. today is supposed to be MIA day. yup. going off to spend a little quality time w myself today.

will be back. yups.

我终于领悟了。有些事，是不能勉强的。这样，双方才可以再次寻找属于自己的幸福与快乐。

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失去身边最重要的朋友的感觉：厌。
一次又一次地失去身边最重要的朋友的感觉：累。
无数次地失去身边最重要的朋友的感觉：死。

情，是我的死穴。

有时候，感觉上真的很像命运的玩偶。闷的时候，就会把我当成傀儡，慢慢的折磨我。明知情，对我而言，再重要不可，还把我身边一个一个好友抢走，真是残忍。

早已厌倦这种孤单的生活。有时真想一个人跑到天涯海角，与寂寞拜堂成亲，一起白头偕老，过一生。但，我做不到。情，对我而言，太重要了。

有时候，回想起昔日的生活，还能找到朋友对友情一丝丝的执著。双方对互相都有一定的信任，相信彼此会不顾种种困难一同继续走下生命的道路。今日，一段段友情，因互相害怕伤害，而放弃了一段美丽的友情。今日，一段段友情，因自私的行为，而把天长地久转变成曾经拥有。

我厌了，累了，心也快死了。对友情的执著也慢慢的淡了。

因为我为情而生，为情而死。

情，是我的死穴。

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有时候，真的很想跪在你面前，跟你表示歉意。有时候，恨不得把你杀了，因为你对我太好了。有时候，真的很想告诉你，你对我是多么重要。有时候，恨不得拥抱你，告诉你你的人太好了。

现在，真的很后悔当天所发生的事。那件事，根本不是你的错。却我，太不了解你的好意。做出了一件连我自己也难以原谅自己的事。你呢，没怪我，还把一切的错误，推到自己身上。真是让我后悔莫及。

真希望能得到你的谅解，也希望你会在给自己一个机会，原谅自己，（即使我认为你根本没做错）。

to a person who means a lot to me: i'm sorry. it wasnt your fault at all.

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i'm beginning to lose my definitions. what does it mean to be a CLASS?

we went through a terrorizing experience as a class today. it makes me wonder. what is a CLASS?

is it simply a collective noun? or are there bonds attached to this sacred word? is it just the people around you? or it is supposed to mean a second family?

i'd love for 40xygen2 to be like a second family to all of us. but soonkiang pointed out to me today, why that isnt possible? attitude.

i dont know. i'll try the best i can to bring the class as one. but it takes 2 hands to clap doesnt it? if i give all i can, to bring the class together, will i see any result? or am i supposed to blindly try my best, keep a closed eyes to all the problems, and try till i cannot take it anymore?

i dont know.

402, can you tell me?

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YAAAAWN!

i'm so lethargic. okok. should go for a run later. now, i shall go study my GEOG! bleahs. hang in there sheryl. 2nd last test of the week! (:

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sheryl sheryl sheryl. what went wrong? why did you slip?

oh well. time to buck up i guess. sigh.

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我不见了！

monday is D-day for me. diarrhoea day.

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the four of us (:


us with chan


justa lot of people.


me.soonkiang.nana


spastic andrew.


spastic andrew2.


sheryl and regina!


mad huishan (:


CHEESE!


group photo!

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you all made me feel at home (:

YAY! more than 6 people came. had about 15? i dont know. little but big improvement from the previous outing. thank you God. thanks to those who came. you all made my night. JEREMIAS CAME AS WELL!

had fun altogether. especially with the slimming machines i have at home. haha. really fun. and scary movie is not scary at all. it was pure gross and erms. funny. haha. so much for being a SCARY movie.

oh well. enjoyed myself throughouly. to 2 people (u know who u are), sorry to play the prank on you. we were just. being.. us. (:

realized today tt chan is really a gentleman. dinner was on the house. after he left, he smsed me, asking me if for the price of the dinner and insisted on paying me some cash. so i told him to owe me an ice cream. X: haha.

okay. i'm dead beat. but it was worth it. really worth it. i'm glad people enjoyed themselves.

once again. THANKS 402.

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if more than 6 people come, i'd thank god (:

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寒天喝冷酒，点滴在心中。
心中的辛酸，有谁知？

i'm starting to wonder. why work so hard, when the payback is so little?

tell me somebody.

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情是我的死穴。

你曾跟自己说过，再也不会傻傻的跌进陷阱。
但，你失败了。
你一次接一次地允许自己跌下无底洞，
一次接一次地费了不少功夫，才能再次正座起来。
难道，你不累吗？

你真是笨透了！

笨

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sometimes, the closest things are the most unattainable.

PHYSICS TEST TOMORROW. crap. i screwed all my tests this week so far. think physics will be a goner too. sigh.

i think i smell like prata.