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okay! the speech thing has finally ended and i'm kinda proud of myself. no, i didnt win anything and didnt get into the finals either. but i'm glad that people came up to me after my speech and tell me "well done!". it was great encouragement. besides that, an adjudicator even found me on purpose to tell me my mistakes and areas i've performed well in. you have no idea how thankful i was!

haha. erms. i know I NEED TO DO MY TUTORIALS (but i dont know how to do maclaurins!) hees. a little lazy, and i really dont know how to do them. oh boooo! haha.

mummy and daddy came back from their honeymoon hehs! i'm glad they had a great time! OH OH! i think i better go now. so TOODLES!

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let me share with you something i've learnt yesterday. people look down on you when you dont speak the perfect English. and i've learnt it the hard way.

oh well, never mind. i may not speak the perfect English, but at least i haven't lost my identity, and my command of my mother tongue language.

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HELLO! mr chan just announced that... THURSDAY IS FULL DAY FOR VJ ((: yay! so this week, effectively wed, thurs and fri have no school. wed is arts day (which starts at 10am but i only have 1 lecture in the morning and break all the way till 10!). thursday is full day WOO! and friday is good friday (:

what a good way to finish off the week. YAY!

jealous, anyone?

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i think my life now is dull. its not like i'm not having fun, i am. maybe too much fun, or maybe i'm just involving myself too much. i feel dead.

everyday feels the same. after all the busying, when i sit alone on the bed and stone, tears will just start welling up in the eyes. maybe i just cannot adapt to JC life, or maybe i just miss my secondary school life. i know i ought to do sth about this, but there's no time to do anything about it.

mr ching has been telling me to do stuff i like. its not like i never tried, but i'm yawning more than enjoying what i used to love to do oh-so-much. now, when i look at secondary school students, i wonder about how carefree their lives are, and i'm envious. you have no idea how much i want to go back in time, but that's not possible.

i dont know if anyone has this sentiment of feeling so involved in everything, but so distant to everything. i feel so mentally strained and emotionally numbed, and it gets worse when you have to start comforting people who feel similarly, because u know you need to be stronger (at least at that point in time).

i hope this is just an awful phase that can quickly pass. its no wonder i feel like eating ice cream everyday.

to mr ching: thanks for letting me depend on you everytime i emo. you still know what to do when i cry. you've made everything so much easier for me, little bro. (:

to danny: thanks for making everything feel unreal everytime i'm with you. at least i feel easy and comfortable. and happy graduation from BMTC.

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just random pictures on what's been happening these while.

we sneaked teresa into school X:

jazz continued to act super retarded. (i cant stand her lah. so damn cute!)

and we took zilian pics in the toilet!

then this is taken against this escalator. HAHAH. lem looks super cute. kenn refuses to look up and smile. BOOO!

ahh. new class mate called weiliang. and he is super funny! WEILIANG ACT CUTE.

then the sleeping aura steps in and johnathan caused jonathan to sleep. haha.

and vivian ACT CUTE. but is damn cute. (: my favourite.

and a picture of me and weiling! haha,

then yanzhu hamsupped peiyi. GOODNESS! yanzhu how can u betray me?!

oh oh. this is our drawstring picture. if u enlarge this thing u can see that charlotte's drawstring is dark blue, mine is blue and yanzhu's light blue.

okay. squiggly ice cream! haha.

we took class photo too!

and this is quite a full class photo. oh. (:

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i bet i'm going to lose one of my closest sec school friend because someone refuses to get out when i asked him to, just to catch up. right, mr ching? and yes, i'm pissed at you because u are forever like that. its not like i never tried, its that you never accepted, and its getting irritating. BAH!

on a lighter note, i'm proud of myself! but yeah, i guess i wont elaborate much. haha. oh well, i've got to catch up with cc and a few other ppl while doing my work. BAH!

i swear i need some time for myself.