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hmms. maybe some scars are just more difficult to heal than others. especially when similar scary things just repeatedly happen over a span of less than three years. you just cant seem to heal normally anymore. or maybe its just me.

everytime i thought, okay, maybe i'm totally okay about the matter by now. but then i realized that, no, i'm not. when sth similar happens, i'll just paralyse and freak out like some idiot. maybe i'm just weak lah.

i hate myself for acting like that. i'm sorry u have to see this side of me.