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i scared myself today.

i was at the bus stop.
watching cars go by.
when i suddenly had the urge to run towards the lights.
lights coming at full speed.
but i was too tired to even continue watching.
even less run towards them.
so i stayed and watched my opportunity pass by.
before my world came crashing down on me again.

how i wish i could share all these with you. but, i'm not sure now.